Sunday, May 20, 2007
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i know i keep complaining about my cg. but its so hard to NOT complain. but then again im quite tired of typing it over and over again. although its quite interesting that im the supposed 'oldest' member. im around longer than my cgl-to-be. anyway i kinda pity him la. his first cg will be his downfall. LOL. seriously... this cg is not a good cg to be starting out with. LOL.

and i have the sudden urge to visit museums. like the singapore;s art museum, or the asian civilization museum. must be signs of maturity. HAHA. but... but... i dont wanna be old! feels both good and bad. i feel bad when i see secondary sch level and below. they look/feel so kiddish. but at the same time, 16 yrs old felt like yesterday to me. where i was still in my classroom with matthew on my right johnny behind me randy on my left so on so forth. waiting for the sch bell to ring and if i dashed home, i would be home by 2.30pm. ever since i entered poly, reaching home by 2.30 would be quite the privilledge already.

i always feel awkward when at the end of a svc, they will give an 'altar call' for forgiveness. that we have to forgive and forget. i feel so out of place because when pst says lift up one hand if u wan to forgive someone for something. because... i have no one to forgive or forget! LOL. yea im a weirdo. i will always think whether im holding a grudge against anyone, or whether i have any enemies that i have to forgive. and... shld i say sadly? i have none. so i will always see practically everyone around me lifting their hands up, so i will just have to follow the crowd and lift. if not people peeping will think im stuck up or something and dont want to forgive. LOL. so lame. pst says its an attitude, and something about wanting to forgive. he says its not something to be born with. but i kinda disagree. considering i AM born with it. ah dont know lah! i still think thats weird. being NOT able to hold grudges. being NOT able to have enemies. well its nice. but weird.



anyway, i think i will give up and move on. gg. (good game). game over.

am0s.SaNSeiU was shot at 3:06 AM