Oo.

i made a new tagboard! well not like anyone cares. its probably gonna take 2 days before SOMEONE finally notices i have a new tagboard anyway.

my new cg. sigh. dam pathetic lah seriously. i have no idea what they were thinking when they wanted to multiply my cg. and i have even lesser of an idea what they are trying to do leaving me in a youth cg. when 2 younger members go to adult. they did it on purpose. purposely taking away ALL my close friends in the cg. they love doing that. thats like their speciality.

but at least my new 'leader to be' is understanding. i mean. he's dam patient lah. even when he was still a helper. all his sms, and politeness always saying thx. really earned my respect. and he's perseverance yet he doesnt vent his frustrations on anyone. he even came to me and say since this is a transition period, he dont mind even if once in a while i dont want to fellowship with the members since i dont have any close friends. most leaders would FORCE you to fellowship lah. so this kind of 'no pressure' thing is a good tactic on his part lah. i mean. personally i know that i have to fellowship lah. but its a turn off knowing i dont have any close friends left. but by saying that, he's showing me his authority in the sense that he is rising up, but at the same time is showing me that i do have a choice and im old enough to decide and stuff. so thats cool lah.

anyway. this period is going to be a test. a test of faith, a test of perseverance, a test of whether it will last. i mean, if i fail this test, then its obviously no point. ahh what am i talking about. LOL.

ok enough of my spams today. its mostly just my thoughts. and my bike, ai ya. haha. i better pluck out some courage and ride FURTHUR into the UNKNOWN. maybe one day, i'll choose a nice timing and go ALL the highways MYSELF. give myself a crash course. HAHA. but i dont intend to crash lah. LOL. i shall ride frm bedok to changi, den changi to woodlands, den woodlands to boon lay, den boon lay back home to bedok. LOL. after that i will surely dare to ride anywhere anytime. HAHA MADNESS.

am0s.SaNSeiU was shot at 11:38 PM