Saturday, April 14, 2007
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sometimes we it feels like the world is against us and we're choking under the intoxicating oh so uncontrollable smog. and they say that a hero will save us, im not gonna stand here and wait! ah dont we love making random nonsensical lines.

the moonlight shining oh so softly on me while i sit here in my little messy room typing and thinking thoughts of how things might turn out. things that concern my past present and future. contemplating on small issues like what to wear tommorrow to what will happen to me 10 years from now. thoughts of happiness and joy, thoughts of fear and nervousness. dont you think we're all kinda weird in our own little unique way? dont you think we're all quite the odd ball?

sounds of my keyboard clicking away in the late silent night as my msn tells me of people coming online with its small little box and soft sound. we all love to cuddle up to our little cosy whatevers for comfort but what will happen when it all goes disarray on us. will you still be standing there by the little lamp with that satisfied smile on your face? will you still be around to even just breathe to oh so fresh morning air? will you even look at me?

blogging is sometimes so interesting. only if you make it so. what will you do if you were me? would you jump onto your feet and shout hooray for the day is near? but on the other side, i might not get my first choice, my preferred choice, my wanted choice! will i still be glad? was all the sweat, energy, slogging away under the hot sun spending hours away from home worth it all? probably it is as the saying goes - better than nothing. but will i be contented? my brain knows, my heart knows, the reasoning behind this force that drives me to understand that what i really want might not be the one for me. but every muscle of my body tells me this is what i've been working towards! what i have long awaited for!

so til this day, i will tell you no more.

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