Friday, March 02, 2007
not SATISFIED.

i'm @$@#$#@ NOT SATISFIED! i'm repeating a module this sem. i got 44.5/50 for my term test. my graded lab assignments and lab works are almost full marks. i totally owned the exam paper today. i shld get AT LEAST 90/100 for it. BUT all i am going to get is 1 GPA for it simply bcoz i was late for class 4 times. so that subject is gonna be non-graded and even if i pass all i get is a P grade which is a gpa of 1. TOTALLY SCREWED UP! i failed it last sem so to make up for it i'm supposed to get AT LEAST AN A. BUT NOW FRM 4 GPA IT BECOMES A FREAKING USELESS 1. AND THE TEACHER DIN EVEN REPLY MY EMAIL FOR APPEAL.

not satisfied not satisfied not satisfied dammit.

@#$@#$ lah. anyway my exams are over so. but theres 2 papers that i am totally no confident of passing. but of coz i still hope it will get moderated and i will still pass loh.

pass prac 8 on my first attempt. now that rox. dam brarrdyyy shiok. TP 5th april. MUST pass 1 shot. den can straight away get my bike! song song song song song.

not much to blog lah. nothing much in my life. sometimes i'm confident of myself but i'm still afraid of the outcome. afraid that the outcome would be 'no'. afraid that the outcome will be rejection. i noe that in all things i have to try. because if i dun try it would definitely be a no. but at the same time. if i dun try, i wont have to cope with the rejection.

are dreams a vision of the future? or is it simply the wanting for something so badly til u even dream about it when ur aslp. i sure hope its a vision. bcoz in my dreams i see lots of things. lots of things i really want. lots of things i pray n hope will happen in my life. but at the same time they seem so impossible. but they seem so real too. sometimes i can almost feel it like thats not a dream, tats my life.

i love jap songs. i love rock songs. and i even love certain techno songs. yes i really do.

so what if its jap? so what if u dun understand most of it? its called music. not literiture. i can feel it. i dun haf to understand it. its about appreciating and enjoying music.

so what if its rock? so what if its loud n some parts even have screamings? its called music. not drama shows. i can feel it. it doesnt have to be soothing and slow with great vocals. its about appreciating and feeling the vibe.

so what if its techno? so what if they use digital stuff to create the music and so what if the rhythm is quite repetive? its called music. not money. i can feel it. i dun haf to see it. its about appreciating the beat, the lyrics to it, and feeling the groove.

but of coz i tink most of the techno songs suck. LOL. theres only the selective few that i find superb.

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