Saturday, September 30, 2006
is THIS considered shy-ness or bold-ness.

ok you know... i've been thinking lately whether i'm a shy or bold person and its kinda weird.. i think i appear bold on the outside but i'm actually dam shy on the inside. hmm how do i explain this. don't any of u experience it? i mean... some ppl can say hi and people they recognize. i mean they dun even noe the person's name! and they can say hi and all. but i can see someone walk pass me for like 2 yrs and i'll never even look the person in the eye. NO WAY! or something like... put me with a stranger and i'll just shut up. kinda thang.

but i would dare to do stupid things especially wif my frens and i can make up conversations with new people i meet if i haf to get to noe them or if they're a fren's fren n we're gonna spend the whole day together n stuff. but at the same time... i rather take a bus or mrt sometimes by myself n listening to my mp3 instead of taking with someone. you know during a cg meeting, i learnt some 'love' languages that people have. words of affirmation, quality time, gift giving, acts of services and physical touch. and lots of ppl seem to have the 'quality time' love language. but apparently... i don't think i do. so does that show i'm an introvert kinda person? but it doesnt seem like i'm introvert at the same time. its so confusing.

i like making frens n talking. but i dun like meeting strangers and spending TOO much time wif ppl.
i like knowing more ppl. but i cant even say hi to someone i recognize. in fact. i cant even say hi to a old aquitance. it just feels weird.

i can do stupid things with my frens. but i become a tortise hiding in my shell the minute i'm put in an unknown enviroment.

i get hyped n excited over small little things and can talk about anything. but i prefer blasting my mp3 n juz playing computer at home alone.

so how does that make sense? i'm an extrovert if you know me. but if you know me well. i'm an introvert.

thats what i have concluded.

weird huh. yea i made u read all that. when actually i sort of have the answer myself. mAUhAUhaUA



HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:

well juz wanna say everything went smoooooooooooooooth baby. as smooth as a baby's bottom. i had a great helper for children church i dare to say it couldnt have gone so nicely if not for her. if i had to come up with sentences to equivilant her... i would say, she helped me take care of the fort when i'm off to meetings. (doing administrative stuff n double checking) she helps me look after the soldiers when i'm out. (entertains n looks after the kids while i'm busy wif other stuff) and so on. i really couldnt have done it wifout her. everything just went so smoothly today. for once in a very long time, big day wasnt stressful or busy at all. it was really nice n fun. it was like there were 2 bus leaders instead of just 1 today. totally rox. i cant express what i feel now except saying everything went smooooooooooth! sweeeeeeeeeeet! sexayyyyyyyyyyy! everything went bam bam bam bam bam n joint together so nicely. its probably the best big day i had so far. great helper, admin side went good, lotsa kids came, no conflicts on the bus, great service, found all the pickup points n kids wif ease, all got the presents they wanted, GREAT HELPER! i wonder when i'll meet her again. maybe i shld sms her to thank her again. i really couldnt have done it wifout her. now tats wat i call a bus helper. in fact. its more of like a co-leader. yeayeayea i know today's post is like super boring but TOO BAD. i'm just darn happy n relieved i had a such a GREAT bus helper. GREAT! i dont care if u think i'm over-rating her. SHE'S ABSOLUTELY SUPERB!

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